April 8, 2009

im writing this so to remind me of how depressed i am today. have not been this depressed for sometime now. i just really wanna cry. im at a point where i just really wanna cry. i dnt have much right now and im living in a curve. i have my savings but i swear i will not touch it. i need my salary asap. i am torn into my duty and my personal needs. i dnt want to leave my job cause ive had it for sometime now and i dnt want to leave my boss whose always been there when im at my lowest but its been a month of work with no wire. agents are freaking mad now. a certain atty form labor is now contacting me. rent and utilities are unpaid, this is so stressing me out. im planning to study again cause i dnt want to work in a callcenter anymore. been in this business for years, been an agent, been a TL, handled TLs, handled a site, been there done it, i see none much for me here. but other jobs jst doesnt offer much aswell unless i go overseas which i dnt want cause i have my baby. im so confused. im so not used to living in a curve. i feel suffocated that its getting harder to breath, its getting harder to live. save me!