Returning home from working abroad was one of the most exciting parts of having to go out of the country. Great plans ahead. But where do you really put yourself after such? I don't know what went on my mind to even think of going home. At that time it was exciting. I thought I could just pick up from where I left off. But it apparently doesn't work that way. After a year abroad, people moved on. My only friend has new set of friends. My baby has grown so big and she's closer to her tita. My mom has grown older and hasn't changed a bit in complaining of not having money. My sister earns more than I do now. Where am I supposed to put myself here? I used to earn a lot. Now that I've gone home, I'm just another unemployed single mom. Words like I love you from family members were only heard through ym or skype. This is so depressing. I tried coming back to the same industry, but even call center has lost its sparkle. There is nothing for me here. Now that I'm about to leave the country again, let this blog of mine be a reminder to not comeback so soon. Target, 5 years. I need to set up a new life and forget for a moment what I'm going to be leaving here. After all, I feel that I'm better off alone in a foreign land than feel alone in my own house. It’s the third day my mom and I hasn't talk after an argument about our finances. Sad. I'm gonna be leaving pretty soon and we haven't had closure. I just wanna pull time to quickly run and get out of this mess. I don't ever wanna be put in this situation again, ever. I will work my ass out day and night to get lotsa money. After all, it seems I only get loved when I have more catching! Leave and never look back. Just leave. There is nothing for me here. Waiting for visa seems the longest days and patience is a bitch. I'm trying to just get by with the thought that every day that passes brings me closer to what is right. Leave and never look back.