God, guidance please in raising this little princess. She woke me up last night crying as she crawl beside me in my bed. i was a bit mad as i got startled. but it all disappeared when i heard her sobbing. must have been a bad dream or something as she didnt answer when i asked her why. she just went straight beside me in bed and sob to sleep. i am not used to having her sleep beside me. it was a long night for me. i watched her as i she fell into deep sleep. she has grown so fast. it kinda scare me what tomorrow will be like for her. will i be able to send her to college? will i be able to give her a good life? knowing in the future, its only me and her against the world. i want to be able to do good for her. provide all she needs and be a good mom. she may leave me one day. but i know she would always be mommys little girl.All these thought made me scared. although i know that today is my yesterdays tomorrow. and its not that bad. its not ideal but im learning to live a day at a time. my world isnt mine alone. its hers. shes my world. God, i ask that you bless her. shes my one and only. my one and only.
these are momentary feelings; pieces of my troubled mind; i write what i think, what i think is what i feel, what i feel is what I am and what i am is what i am...... and if only promises could erase the past, I could open my heart enough to take it all back. But Ive been down this road, time and time again. And I've learned the hard way how the story always ends...
Sunday, January 20, 2013
God, guidance please in raising this little princess. She woke me up last night crying as she crawl beside me in my bed. i was a bit mad as i got startled. but it all disappeared when i heard her sobbing. must have been a bad dream or something as she didnt answer when i asked her why. she just went straight beside me in bed and sob to sleep. i am not used to having her sleep beside me. it was a long night for me. i watched her as i she fell into deep sleep. she has grown so fast. it kinda scare me what tomorrow will be like for her. will i be able to send her to college? will i be able to give her a good life? knowing in the future, its only me and her against the world. i want to be able to do good for her. provide all she needs and be a good mom. she may leave me one day. but i know she would always be mommys little girl.All these thought made me scared. although i know that today is my yesterdays tomorrow. and its not that bad. its not ideal but im learning to live a day at a time. my world isnt mine alone. its hers. shes my world. God, i ask that you bless her. shes my one and only. my one and only.