31.unemployed.single mom. not exactly what i had planned to be. just what exactly happen? my blogsite says it all. only one came exactly as planned. to be a single mom. but even that is going to fail without a job to support her needs especially now that she is gonna be schooling this june. i can go and find a job. but it just doesnt feel right. all the jobs out there are in the call center industry, something that ive been wanting to avoid for a shift of career. call centers has the money. they pay big compared to other industries as i am also bounded by my age and education.

i am so torn right now with what i dont want, what i can and what is right. they are not going in parallel with one another. this is so confusing. when i left accenture, i know one thing for sure, that job wasnt for me. the hard part is, i can only say it when ive been there done that as i dont know what i want. this outlook has made a long list of jobs in my resume running from few months to a year which isnt good at all. how do you know what you want and want it bad enough to stick with it for good?

i feel like an idiot having to lay here and talk about this. i know if i want things to change im gonna have to move my ass up and work it. find a job. and find one quick.

this morning, i went through hundreds of job net pages literally to see what is out there. and disappointing as it is, there is nothing there but call center jobs. this doesnt wanna make me go out there and kill it. my previous experiences has been all in the call center industry, and to be honest, nakakasuka na ang call center. is this what i want to do, or keep on doing? the answer is hell no. and i know for a fact if i go out there for a call center job... i might just end up again quitting after a year.

how to you pick the right career? this is so frustrating that it makes me wanna blame it all to what they call the midlife crisis. i know, most would say its about the attitude towards the job.... well how do you get the right attitude then? its by wanting what you do. this is becoming so depressingly unhealthy!