I do things the only way I know how. I often hate me for it too but what to do? Lead me the way and I would gladly obey. Until then, I am back to my old routine with hopes bad could have a good fruit.

I am so bored today that its driving me crazy. So many things running in my mind... and yet nothing I can do. Staring at an empty space and losing myself off all my should have would have could haves leading me to feel more depressed than ever. I am so lonely. I am so lonely. I am so lonely.

I woke up day. Jogged. Sweat like theres no tomorrow. got home, ate, and slept for the rest of the morning. Noon time ate, played with my dog. Its afternoon now and I dont have anything to do... There has got to be more to life than this... I feel so alone. Im not sure how I can survive this but please.. please ... please, if there is something out there for me, cause I cant take this no longer :(

Ano? Paano? Bakit? Saan na? Saan pa? Malaking PAANO???