Ates' reminder before going to hospital, " huwag kang masungit, matanda na yan, maramdamin.," as I was hurrying mom up to go to hospital - as I was trying to still make it to work late rather than absent. I woke up with her lying down feeling abdominal pain, vomiting and nauseated.

She's 63. It feels sad to think that I have gotten so comfortable with my mom not minding the fact that shes 63. My old lady has been far from what I recall her to be. She moves slow, complains of body pain and poor eyesight. She complains of forgetfulness and often feeling tired. Looking at her now sleeping in this hospital bed, she had wrinkled overnight. Her arm muscles were very light and saggy. It suddenly struck me, Shes 63. God what have I done to better her situation? Guilty, so so guilty, I cant continue ...... ....