The weather is so depressing. I feel depressed waiting for something new to spark and look forward to yet theres nothing coming. This is it, this is how it is and this is how it will always be. Sad but true. I know I shouldn't thinking this way but what is there really to hope for? Years and years of wishing and hoping. This is sad. So sad.
All my dreams before are being lived by people I see. They have it, I don't. I have dreamt of it, and did not  materialize. I see them get it, I should be happy but I am perfectly sad. So sad. This is bad I know but I cant help it. Damn depressing.