Makakabawi din ako. Mantra for 2018. Makakabawi din ako. 

I don’t know when. All I know is right now, I am deep down the gutter. Life is so hard. 36, no work, no income, no nothing and a family to feed. With house and credit card bills to pay. What the hell have I done to myself. This is a mess. 

I recently resigned. Gustohin ko man manisi, desisyon ko din naman yun. Things I can’t  undo. Only best to look forward and move on. I am running out of moves. I am financially empty and at a very unstable mind. I am so depressed. All is but going backwards for me. Time is of an essence and I am running out of time. 

Di ko na alam ang gagawin ko. I need help.