olah amigos and amigas. whats cooking? none much on my end here. its raining so hard as i blog. as usual, on a rainy day like today, my nosetrils are clogged. my lung seems continuesly produce phlegm. i never run out of cough, or flu or whatever this is. been in the hospital for 4 times and had my lungs checked these past 2 months. international diagnostic, saint camillus twice, and clinica manila.... all is clear, but i never stopped coughing. i hate it. either they are bogus doctors that cant figure out whats wrong or is this my normal mode? to have a clogged nose and cough. yuckieeee! hate it. runny nose. my voice hasnt been norm for sometime. i feel a little deaf. crazy, just when drowning myself with vitamins, i got so sickly.

I got back into drinking coffee again. a couple of months without it never solved my sleeping problems. so what the heck... coffee it is. i just had to. i feel like ive been depriving myself too much considering i dont eat and drink any cold stuffs anymore. even when eating out, always and always drinks without ice.

now that i dont go to work. im able to rest. thats something i wanna thank God for. hope not for long though. i had to. i just had to. to save the relationship. our friendship. i feel bad and sorry for what happened but in the end i know and he knows its for the better.